"You killed us once by taking everything we held dear, everything that binds us to life. Tears are witnesses of our grief. Tears unchained our wrath. And now we're here, without fear of death, confronting you. We didn't start the war but we will end it."
... League of Forsaken Souls
"Raised by a family strictly following archaic traditions she has no prospect of a self-determined life. Prohibitions and isolation define her daily life and her family tries to stay among "themselves". But there is this nurnig desire for more that challenges her predefined role as mother and wife. She falls in love with a young man and despite her father's forbiddance she moves to him. As she gets pregnant the young couple marries in secrecy and looks forward to a future filled but her father considers his honour wounded. He decides the young couple's death. She survives but has to witness the death of her beloved husband. She makes herself responsible for his death and falls into severe depressions as her whole world crumbles. As the justice has to end the criminal investigations due to lack of evidence her soul fades. Her father intends to restore his wounded honour and abducts her into his homeland. He arranges a marriage and she would have surrendered into her fate but then she realizes that it's not about her. It is about her unborn child. She needs to save her from such a fate and with an uprising courage she unleashes irrepressible hate. As much as she despises her father's affected honour as well as his moral values deluded by faith and archaic traditions, finally, one of them she avails for herself ...
... eye for an eye"
I feel my thirst for knowledge growing. Dryness inside. I feel hunger to be stilled, starving out my fading mind. Evil voices lie to me, feign my weakness, call me helpless and insane. I feel a guilt just like deceiving those who love me. I fear I'm supposed to do, I'm supposed to merely be as you tell. It's haunting me while I'm dreaming. My heart's crying silently.
All those years my life lied bleeding, was withering away. Cannot see a meaning. Does my fate lead to nowhere? All my striving still earns disdain. Can't endure this nightmare, these struggles in my life and you don't care. I hear an undiminished calling deep within me, tryin' to overcome your voice, tryin' to weaken all your lies, that my fate is giving birth, not to chase rights. These are days I wish to die. You don't care. Why should I stay? This nightmare is killing me. Release me! Release me! Don't let my tears drown me! Forgive me! Forsake me! Let my trace fade behind and life stops bleeding. Tears don't blend with rain. Now I see a meaning since my fate leads to somewhere. All my striving still earns disdain. I endure this nightmare, these struggles in my life since I don't care.
There is a world. It's clear to see but no one does. It's dark and filled with cruelty, depression. You may think it's far away or past. It unveils so near, so fast, with deception. I walked a realm of frozen souls, dying leafs like those when winter sheds the trees in pale light, burnt to ashes, turned to dust like seed that's never poured, condemned to fade and wilt in cold nights. Forsaken souls unchained by tears. We didn't start the war but now we're here to end it. You killed us once, fearful of minds escaping your ties, a league of forsaken souls without the fear to die. Did you expect us just to die, to give up hope? Some did but others took an oath, a vow to never rest till death embraced the vile, to unleash their wrath, to fight the crime. Hear my story!
We have been carefree so many years, never feared the shadows, shed any tears. You gave me confidence, words of comfort. You never failed to sense when doubts tormented me. After nightfall we embraced nightlong, shared the fears and fought them till they were gone. You ever held the key to my frail soul and never failed to be the one that I hoped for. You died. Desperate whispers feign that you're here. I fight but my reason hides behind tears. You gasped with your last breath I should go on. And then you were gone. That moment my whole world came crushing down on me. Darkness hurled desperate moans, nocturnal screams of pain mourning your lifeless body in my arms. The rain sealed your fate. Freezing cold embraced, shadows concealed all my hopes. Not even dreams were revealed. My fading memory fights being lost, to keep your legacy, to make you immortal. Cloudy nights and cold seem to prevail. Filled with hope you promised you'd never fail. But then you lost your life in that dark allyway and saved your wife. An end that fate demands.
That precious moment I heard your voice the first time. Softly spoken words of truth. You witnessed my fears and wiped away all my tears. You loved me just as I am. Your spirit guides me, makes me to lead off the fight, lends me strength to see it through. There was no disguise, no need to live with a lie. You swore to stay by my side. A darkened path goes on to shiver my frail heart. You told the truth and knew that my love would last beyond the day that death did us part. You just had to leave my side but still you never betrayed. They ceased to haunt me - bad days are made to get through - ceased to lead my heart astray. You calmed my wrath by laying your hand down on mine. Your smile was guiding me, too. The thought of losing you let me wake up at night. I knew I'd fade away. My heart stops beating when thoughts like this come to mind. Your breath just eased all my pain.
It seems that life is sad, that I'm already dead. All my life's an empty dream. Cutting steel, it makes me feel that I have not passed away, reminding me to stay alive but always deeply harmed, lonesome and ripped apart. I don't belive you or someone else. In truth I hate myself. Fallen red tears stain a grave's wine. Dark fears overcast time and force the dawn's light to suffer the shadow's awful fate. My faith is overwhelmed. Forsaken hope feeds my hate. All my life's a winding path. Aimless days compelled my heart to greet the vile kiss of death. Constricted in a net of lies I do not hear your call, trying to prevent may fall. I don't belong here or somewhere else. In truth I lost myself. Fallen red tears stain a grave's wine. Dark fears overcast time and force the dawn's light to suffer the shade's fate. Foregone past years tamed my brave mind, raised fears, made me sad-eyed. Embrace the dawn's light to cast out the shadows from your heart.
Lies and evil thoughts fill your spiteful mind. No escape! Enclosing walls still prevent to hide. Your own thrill awaits you there. You're prepared to kill. You took life without any remorse. Now I just fear that dark skies recall all those past cries. How could you assume the right to carelessly decide that this night he shall die for facing down your crimes? He owned the life you hoped for. And you are chasing dimes. Just take a coin from mine. Sins and aimless raids rule your minor fame. All the blood of innocent stains your hands. You claim to be bold, to rule the streets, a legend to be told. Soon your life's taken without remorse. But till that day those dark skies recall all those past cries. How could you assume the right to carelessly decide that this night he shall die for facing down your crimes? He owned the life you hoped for. And you are chasing dimes. Just take a coin from mine. I just fear that dark skies recall all those past cries. How could you assume the right to carelessly decide that this night he shall die for facing down your crimes? He owned the life you hoped for. And you are chasing dimes. Just take a coin from mine. You had laid in wait for killing from behind. The day will come to pay for this treacherous dark life. So take a coin from mine. Take Charon's coin from mine.
I did not feel like a bride the day you told me. I felt that parts of me just died the day you sold me. My bridal veil concealed the tears that ran from my eyes, concealed the pain I felt at night. I hear your whispering breath. It's planting dark seeds. It stokes my fire, stokes my wrath. I'll fight your dark breed. I am ashamed. I hate your tainted blood in my veins. I'll get relief 'cause I am no saint. I was surrounded by shades and fallen ashes, praying for searing flames to wither your deceitful dark breed. It grows my hate and darkest feelings. I kept my wails beneath a silvery widow's veil. Feigned honor forced you to raise your hand against me. A small dissent made you crazed. You called me guilty. A stranger paid for me. My bridal veil just felt like the darkened worn at burial site.
You seem to drown in hatred, fearing the pouring rain, cursing that rainy night that took your beloved and raised the pain, that you are trying to forget. With every tear appearing you regret that you're among the living. Don't be afraid and forsake the fallen dreadful tears. Breathe! Fight the haunting awful fears and try to escape imagined guilt and blinding hate, whispers of doubts and pleadings for relief. New life needs your strength. Cross your enclosing borders. Follow your destiny to places life is leading. Dare to walk unknown ways, to be restless, a wandering soul, as long as you still try to find a goal. Never abandon all hope. Hold out. Face your fear. Go on. I'm still near. Sinister dark days, betrayal, won't find you. Those fateful dark ways now lay behind.
There was a life so calm and kind. We had each other and prayed at every single night to stay together. The fate has told me to begone, made me ascending. I had to leave you here alone but our love is binding. If it feels like getting lost in darkness I'll be there to guide you out of emptiness and fight your blinding fear. Find your hope. Don't mind your sorrows. Now all of them are mine to fight against, to deal with. Eagerly trust in guardian's might. Standing here and crying at my grave consumes your last dreams. Desperation and forsaken faith restrains to fight your dark fiends. I accepted this to be my way, to ever guide you should you ever walk too far astray and never leave your side, too. Ah. Don't miss me, I'm here. Find your hope. Don't mind your sorrows. Now all of them are mine to fight against, to deal with. Eagerly trust in guardian's might.
The memory of your death still drives me insane. May I stop to blame myself? May I unleash my wrath or is my revenge in vain? Will I betray my own fate? Do I even care or will I not dare to send him through Erinyes' gate? Will it end this vile nightmare? Did you ever believe you'll never have to fall, never have to atone for your sins at all? Now you're to die as you deserve it. My life's defiled so is yours to end. I walk the shadows, seek and hide, defying the pain, tearing down your reign of fear till you're frightened by night. Daring zeal drives my disdain. A storm of rage will arise. I've signed devil's deal, wondering how I'll be deceived. My soul could be the price. I'm prepared to pay this fee. Did you ever believe you'll never have to fall, never have to atone for your sins at all? Now you're to die as you deserve it. My life's defiled so is yours to fade into veils of darkness, shadows at night. No atonement for sins. Mercy's eyes are blind. Now you're to die as you deserve it. My life's defiled so is yours to end.
I prayed. Now my love lies below a white frozen blanket of snow. And there's no loss compared to that of losing your beloved. Blood runs cold through my dying heart. I prayed. Yet the dark seized my soul. At night I dream of times before my tears were freezing just before they reach the trembling ground. I die 'cause I was left behind. I realized that in times of darksome hours evil must be fought by another kind of evil. Dare to take off your blindfold. Who brings justice? No one but me. How much proof does it take? I prayed. Yet the fate took its toll. He's gone and I'm still here. I'm alone. And no one's here to ease the pain, to warm the icy nights, who calms my wrath and stands beside. I realized that in times of darksome hours evil must be fought by another kind of evil. Dare to take off your blindfold. Who brings justice? No one but me. How much proof does it take to bring 'em down? Forsaken, join me! There's no place to hide, just to die. No fame, none to earn, just death, silence. The night starts to burn with raging violence. No hope, none to find. We're just here to bind those dark and evil souls, to make them lay in repose.
No one dares to face down low-life. Brave men tend to avert eyes from misdeed. I will stand, leading off the fight. Dark skies foreshadow evil's retreat call. No one cares if the menace grows. Brave men left the defenceless for bleeding. I will stare into darkened souls. Fearless hearts make a stand and force your fall. I won't cease to stalk at fearsome nights, piercing shadows you're hiding behind. For too long I've turned a blind eye to your dark deeds. Now I'm here to raise your darkest fears. You wronged me, tried to harm my pride. Merciless I will seek out to kill you. Now you betake yourself to flight. Too late. I'm after you to bring you down. Tears will dry the day you died, torn apart and with shadows entwined. For too long I've turned a blind eye to your dark deeds. Now I'm here to raise your darkest fears. I'll prevail!
It is the purest thing on earth, that unconditional love of a newborn child but the fear that her deeds made her heart crumble leave her unable to return that love. Finally, watching this innocent life, those child's eyes discovering the wonders of our world, makes her find some hope again. But instead of being proud, instead of accepting and supporting the development of an independent character, instead of encouraging her to make her own experiences with the confidence that she won't break but merely grow with every setback, she tries to imprint her own interests and to form a shadow of her own. Her daughter's trust fades and surviving that accident sets the hare running. Her daughter feels the guilt as she could have stopped the driver, knowingly that he was drunk. But instead she decided to enter the car as she didn't want to call her mother and admit that she still needs her. And now she has to live with that burden, or maybe not? "They say it was god's plan, that he is responsible and I am not allowed to doubt him. If they are right and he really does exist? Is doubting worth the risk of eternal damnation? But there are so many contradictions. Why is this one true and the others not? Just because it is written in that book?". Finally it is too compelling to simply lift and hand over that burden to this allmighty guiding entity that she decides to follow without questioning. The life in her new community is heady, being understood, being embraced, being free of an uncertain future. But then she recieves her mother's diary and finally she recognizes that her actual life is the same story, not free willed, a life in obedience. With this knowledge all the lies crumble. She starts questioning again and reclaims the burden. But the shepherd does not willingly lose a sheep and after all the league is forced to prove a fact ...
... "an old lie does not save you from our wrath."
Tears embrace your first breath. A shivering voice comes to rest, calming your heart, a beacon so bright, your whole world exists in this singular light. But some of my memories entwine my mind, strands of loss crawling out ev'ry night, cut to pieces once, fully regrown they regained their grasp and entangle my soul. I want to take care of all of your needs. If you fall I'll patch up your knees. I don't expect you to follow my path. Just let me light up yours if it's too dark. I won't clear away all of your stumbling blocks nor does it silently rain if there's fraud. No excuses, just apologies count making a lie an unfamiliar sound. Never regret being out of my sight but summon me if loosing your fight. Tear down those walls, go uphill and climb to reach out for stars all burning alight. I only demand that you don't fear void, all those liars with demons beyond and above the law struggling in life. Your mind is your limit. Allow it to dive beyond space and time. Here I stand and open my arms only judging your heart, never judging your scars. No matter what you have done or how far you have gone, you're my child and I love you. I would sacrifice my own life without even wasting a thought. Don't expect to be favored or words of comfort. If it's peace that you seek for yourself and the weak prepare yourselfe for that fight and make sure that your soul will survive.
This is where I rule, here in the darkest place. A cry of mercy precedes your chosen fate. You'll never let 'em go despite their broken souls let 'em bow. A golden cage for those too blind to see, who treat you well, who praise your way. You made them fear the darkness, fear the veils of night. A whisper of loss, a promise that kills their pride is all you need to bury disbelief, to hold them near, to hold them here. None of your steps unseen. 'Cause it is my affair, our game. A darkened soul consuming brightest flames belongs to hell. We guide the way and force to fear the darkness, fear the veils of night. Surrender your soul. No chance to survive that fight since we're too strong to fall for pleading tears, for binding ties or blinding lies. This is where I rule, here in the darkest place. A cry of mercy precedes your chosen fate. Your dying soul fades, just disappears in silence as well as mine breaks till I become the devil's maid.